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[08 Apr 2009|10:06pm] [ mood | pessimistic ] why did i assume finding an acceptable prom date would be an easy endeavor? i have gone through two, and i'm unhappy with the third. it's getting to the point where i don't even want to go to my own prom anymore. i have my dress, and it's beautiful. but i don't want to spend the whole night with someone i can't even be myself around, and end up feeling awkward the next time we see each other at school. i just want it to mean something. but there's not a single person that could make it meaningful. comment.

[25 Oct 2008|12:32pm] [ mood | pensive ] [ music | hallelujah - gregory michael. ] it's funny how when you're young people tell you that you can do anything you want. you can accomplish any dream you set your mind to. and in my senior year of high school, i'm told my passion doesn't really matter. i can't do everything i want to achieve. i can't do anything unless someone wants me to do it. what happened to the land of dreams? and why can't those dreams include mine? i want to write the best romance novels that the world has ever seen. and i will do it. whether the world wants it or not. comment.

just for the record, [23 Jul 2008|08:28pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | moonlight sonata - beethoven. ] i don't think i try too hard to sound intelligent. in fact, i think in the case of my speech, i have a very limited vocabulary. i can't help it if the only place i'm comfortable with expressing myself is in the computer chair. i can't help it that i have a gift of writing, and that i try to strengthen that gift by writing stories or even myspace "about me's." i'm sorry if i'm too smart for you. i'm sorry that i know proper grammar and proper syntax and have a wonderful vocabulary. i'm sorry that even in my writing, i must be judged and ostracized. just for trying to be the best i can be. i'm sorry that i don't fit into the mold you like. and that i have different interests and goals. i never considered that trying too hard to stand out. i just thought i was supposed to be who i am. and people would respect that about me. but, once again, i'm apparently wrong. comment.

[17 Jul 2008|03:36pm] [ mood | surprised ] [ music | lost at sea - eisley ] what the fuck. who offers a straight virgin to have a threesome? weird ass people. comment.

[07 Jul 2008|10:46pm] [ mood | full ] woohoo first job! comment.

[05 Jun 2008|06:39pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] there's always a high, and then a low. and right now, it's the low. comment.

hello summer [21 May 2008|06:50am] [ mood | cheerful ] last half day of school! this afternoon, i will officially be a senior :] comment.

[28 Apr 2008|03:48pm] [ mood | discontent ] i've had such a bad day. comment.

[18 Apr 2008|10:09pm] [ mood | dorky ] [ music | un dia llegara - josh groban. ] man, i really want to learn spanish. english is for fags. quiero ser muy caliente con la lengua de espanol! and i pretty much am tired of chick flicks because they make me feel like i'm worthless. oh, and i keep having these really weird dreams about gerard butler every night. i mean, not that i mind, but it makes me want to meet him so so baddddd. anyways, i'm so excited for saturday! :] comment.

[18 Sep 2007|07:29pm] [ mood | creative ] i'm becoming hopeful. cameron & i are "seeing how things go." & even if that doesn't work out, i'm going to be alright still, i think. being single isn't the end of the world. it just sucks a lot. 2 comment.

[29 Aug 2007|05:52pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | the power of love - celine dion. ] hahahaha. i asked ethan to homecoming & he said yes. so i have a date :] lolololololzzzzz. comment.

[20 Aug 2007|07:35pm] [ mood | surprised ] wow. i didn't expect to get accepted into this modeling company. but i guess i did. neat. comment.

[26 Jul 2007|10:20pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | star wars. ] i got a new kitty! & his name is dexter :] &&&&& cameron comes home tomorrow night. & then i get to see my boo! comment.

[02 Jul 2007|11:33am] [ mood | sad ] my fishes died this morning :[ comment.

[20 Apr 2007|04:01pm] [ mood | lame ] 420 sucks when you don't got weed to smoke. comment.

future. [09 Mar 2007|04:18pm] [ mood | optimistic ] [ music | hallelujah - gregory michael. ] next year i'm going to be a junior. what happened to my life? i'm not saying i dont like having only two years left. i just dont know where all the rest of the years went. i'm excited about college. but i'm scared at the same time. my life is safe right now. when i leave in two years, the world is mine. but i'm going to be too scared to take it. comment.

[10 Feb 2007|06:28pm] [ mood | pretty ] [ music | the scientist - coldplay. ] tonight's the night. i'm really excited :] comment.

my fantastic day. [30 Jan 2007|04:22pm] [ mood | amused ] so, i had an amazing wonderful day filled with exciting tests & fun work. stephen matamoros is in my 1st period now that's he's back. we're bffs. &&& clarinet choir is pretty much the best hour & a half of my life ever spent. italian in algiers? mhm. i think that's about it. ps. this entry is for sam ritter :] 4 comment.

[14 Jan 2007|01:10pm] [ mood | happy ] i just got a kitty :] 3 comment.

[09 Jan 2007|06:29pm] [ mood | mischievous ] i'm seriously fed up with band. though, i'm still debating on if i'm going to do it next year or not. it doesn't feel like it's worth it anymore. 2 comment.

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